When the Days are Really Long

The other night, I was holding one of my twin girls in my arms and rocking her back and forth…she thinks it’s funny when I pretend she’s a baby (she’s almost 2 and a half). And as I held her, it hit me how big she is. It made me think about holding her as …

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When You Want a Quick Fix

I wish that spiritual growth wasn’t so hard. Lately, I’ve been confronted with how far I have to go. It seems like my shortcomings are all I can see. I’ve had times of feeling that way that came from an unhealthy place of shame and believing lies that tell me I’m not good enough. This …

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Let’s Admit It: Parenting Is Hard

Sometimes it feels like we’re not allowed to talk about how hard it is to be a parent. We think we should feel nothing but gratitude, and to speak of parenting in terms of anything other than joy and a blessing feels wrong somehow. We wanted kids so desperately, and went through such a long …

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Letting Go Of Ideal Goals: Setting Priorities for 2017

How is the new year going for you so far? This is the time of year when we typically evaluate our lives, set goals, and decide that this will finally be the year that we make big changes. We often approach setting goals as this massive overhaul. We decide, I am going to be a …

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How to Have Self Control When Your Kids are OUT of Control

Just when I think we’re in a good stage with the girls, when it seems like FINALLY, things are easier, something shifts and it’s hard again. And then, just when I feel like I’m drowning, like this is too hard and I don’t have what it takes, things shift again, and it feels like a …

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What I Really Need This Christmas

As I enter into this Christmas season, I’ve been trying to slow down and ask myself: What do I really need right now? We traveled for Thanksgiving, and it was a good trip, but also exhausting, because toddlers. We got back on Sunday night, and put up our decorations on Monday, ready for it to …

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We Are the Desperate Ones

Lately, I’ve had this underlying feeling that has stayed with me through my days, and the only way I can think to describe it is this: Desperate. Maybe that seems a little dramatic, but it seems to capture where my heart has been. There has been a lot of heaviness around me lately. None of …

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When Your Talent Isn’t a Gift

Music has always played an important role in my life. Much of my growing up years were centered around music. I took piano lessons from an early age and sang in the choir in school and church. I played the flute, was in the school band, sang in church, helped to lead worship, acted and …

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Why You Can’t Skip the Hard Part

I like to be comfortable. Both physically and emotionally, I would prefer for things to be neat and tidy, for life to make sense and to be in order. I want my life to be put together and to just feel good. Maybe it’s not wrong to want that, and there are times that life …

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When the Death of a Dream Brings Hope

Like most people, I imagined all the big life events would happen for me just like they do for everyone else. I would get married, get a job, get pregnant, and have kids. The typical life milestones and markers. My husband and I got married in 2008. Two years later, we got hit with baby …

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